Chasing3

For my thousands of followers who don't know yet (womp womp), I have decided to move to New Mexico. I'm very excited for my house out there, my roommates, my own students, and my own free world. I'm not excited to be aching for many things about home...

All of my family, my private students, Scott, my girlfriends who are still around, Gymboree, babies, and the beach. I was so fortunate to get the beach yesterday with an amazing person who seriously turns me upside-down.

Sometimes I ask myself, "Why are you leaving?" Everything that makes me happy is here, but I know I will not rest until I know what's out there. I need to see and live in the world. I wish my family understood that I am not choosing the life that's without them - this new life has chosen me. It's all about the search...the chase.

I looked up races in the Santa Fe area and I found quite a bit. Mud races, 5Ks, half-marathons...they'll be available when I feel ready. Most seem to take place in Albuquerque which isn't too far considering how large the state is. As I search for myself and capturing my dream, I'll also be "chasing 3."

This is New Mexico's Triathlon keeper-upper.

http://www.chasing3.com/

Do Life.

On Monday, Scott and I took the train into Philly to meet Ben Davis of bendoeslife.com and his crew for a relaxed and celebratory 5k.

It was the most I've ever run before, so even though I didn't run the whole 5k, I took minimal walking breaks and felt really good especially by the end. We finished with a cliché run up the Art Museum stairs, Rocky Balboa style. It was incredible to hang out with Ben, Jed, and Pa for even so short a time. After following his blog for so long, it was unbelievable to see that they are real, huggable people.

I've spent some time mapping routes to New Mexico. My gut says go but my head says no. Or maybe that's my family that says no. Some of my family accused me of wanting to go because that's what Scott would do. In a heated response, I said that Scott has inspired me to travel and try, and because of him I will NEVER dream small.

I will follow what's right for me...

and I will take on any opportunity that feels right...

even if it's making Ben Davis do Orangeface with me.

Should I stay or should I go?

Some days are harder than others.

Day A I will be rarin to go...teachin' childrens, workin' on mah fitness, knockin'm dead...

Day B I will be a blubbering fool...hopeless and terrified.

Today was a Day A, but I can sense a Night B coming on, so I'm going to keep myself busy. Have a drink, prepare for music class tomorrow, make a Pro and Con list for each of the two job positions I'm being offered, straighten my hair, and watch something that makes me laugh.

As for those jobs I mentioned, one is across the country and one is right down the road. I'd love to start a new life in beautiful New Mexico, but here I could continue with Gymbo, piano lessons, and be with loved ones. The hard part about the pro and con list is that a lot of the scenarios are the same.

Example:

New Mexico Position -

Con - I know nothing about New Mexico.

Pro - I know nothing about New Mexico!

Con - I'd need to learn Spanish quickly.

Pro - I could learn to speak Spanish really quickly!

It's going to be a long night.

I believe! I believe!

Quads

Well the personal training thing is going legal.

Dad got very upset when I came home today and told him that the manager guy told me, "The only way you're getting out of paying this is if you die." Quote. So he's contacted a guy in our town who's seeing the whole situation as fraud. Ohh my goodness.

Everyone there has been very rude except my trainer. Many have told me they'll call and they don't. The comments and lack of help has been ridiculous. When I go in to see the guy who signed me up and promised me extra sessions, he has no idea who I am. He's so in the doghouse.

I worked with my trainer today and my right leg now feels like Jell-O. I suppose my legs should feel equal...oops. :) We did a series of squats, jumps, steps, presses, and a bit of abs. It was fun, but not worth $40/month for 12 months when I can push myself just as hard.

Now I have a craving for Jell-O.

Kickboxing

I'm hooked.

Song Lyrics

You know how after a break-up, every song on the radio or anywhere at all is telling your life story, expressing every word you wish you could say to your ex-love?

Let me get it all out of my system.

"I'm only half a body without your embrace" ~Shakira

"I'll find strength in pain" ~Mumford & Sons

"I'll never get over you getting over me" ~Selena

"I wish I was your favorite girl

I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world

I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile...

I wish you'd hold my hold my hand when I was upset...

Basically, I wish that you loved me.

I wish that you needed me.

I wish that without me your heart would break

I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn't eat

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep...

You're the nicest thing I've ever seen." ~Kate Nash

"I tried to do handstands for you...

I'm permanently black and blue for you." ~Chairlift

"Comparisons are easily done once you've had the taste of perfection...

I guess the second best is all I will know...

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of the winter

like a hard candy with a surprise center...

How can I get better once I've had the best?" ~Katy Perry

"We could have had it all" ~Adele

"Drinkin tea in bed, watching DVD's

When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines

You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers...

When I was feeling down, you made that face you do

There's no one in the world that could replace you." ~Lily Allen

"Maybe it's the best thing for you

but it's the worst that could happen to me." ~Brooklyn Bridge

"Without you here there is less to say...

If I lived til I was 102,

I just don't think I'll ever get over you." ~Colin Hay

"You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, there's just an empty space

and you coming back to me is against the odds, and that's what I got to face." ~Phil Collins (Postal-Service cover)

"Some people want it all

I don't want nothin at all

if it ain't you baby - if I ain't got you baby.

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

but everything means nothing - if I ain't got you." ~Alicia Keys

"Didn't I give you nearly everything a woman possibly can?" ~Janis Joplin

"You and I will be a tough act to follow." ~Daughtry

I love you.

Read the Fine Print

If you know me at all, you know I don't like competition, ammunition, or ESPECIALLY confrontation. I hate difficult customers. I hate yelling, debate, winners and losers.

But I had to raise hell today.

The personal trainer told me our meetings would be $40/month, but I was billed $139. I was never told about these enrollment/blahblah fees and I was quite upset with it. THEN the man tells me that I have signed up for a 12-month plan that I have "no choice but to complete." So, when I signed up, I was told that I could cancel at any time. Fat. Chance. It's "too late."

I explained to a manager that none of this was communicated to me. I'm waiting for a call from the VP. I want my money back.